The place where you can’t be anything other than yourself.

The place where you can’t be anything other than yourself.

In the past, I’ve been able to spend time in my studio. I’ve worked, I’ve studied, I’ve painted, I’ve written, I’ve lived in the moment. But, I have not been able to let go of the self-imposed rules that govern my life. The rules that tell me what I can and can’t do. The rules that force me to be responsible for myself. I’ve told myself, “I can’t have time to do anything other than what I’m doing now.”

But, I’ve also told myself, “I need to finish this painting before I do anything else.” I need to finish this painting before I do anything else. I’ve never really finished anything before. I’ve always been in a rush. I’ve always been so focused on finishing that I never really had time to stop and look around.

I’ve never been able to slow down. I’ve always been in a hurry. I’ve always had a million things to do. I’ve always been “too busy to do anything.” I’ve always been too much of a workaholic to actually enjoy myself. So, I’ve always been a work-aholic. And, I’ve never really been happy. I’ve always been working. I’ve always been working on something. And, I’ve always been thinking about what I need to do next.

But, what if there was a way to slow down. To stop and look around. To enjoy myself. To actually be happy? I’ve spent the last few months working on my work-life balance. I’ve been doing a lot of research, a lot of reading, a lot of talking. I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to take some time off. I need to stop working.

But, what does that really mean? It means I need to take some time…

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